Lately, I’ve been frustrated with a lot of little thing, that shouldn’t really be a huge deal, but I’m one of those people that really stress themselves out over “no big deals”. When someone says “don’t worry about it”, it is more annoying than anything, because I KNOW I shouldn’t worry about it, but I do. It’s in my nature. So you telling me that, only makes me angrier with you.
Anyways, Last week I was fated with the news that I didn’t get the concept art position that I really wanted. Which is fine, I understand that some things you don’t achieve and in all honesty, I would have been white as rain. Sometimes, introverts like me just need a few to get over it. Or wrap us up burrito style in a blanket and call it good. I don’t need pity, and I don’t need pep talks, really, introverts don’t need ‘cheering up’ as much as you think we do.
Along with the rejection notice, I seem to have been going through a period of art blocks. I keep wanting to try new things to get over it, and I’m very accustom to pushing through these times, but right now, more than ever, I really want to make it as an artist. Some say I’ve already made it, I say that is yet to be determined.
I’ve done some new pieces, but I think what I really want to do is start blogging about EVERYTHING that I do. I don’t just draw all the time, a lot of the times I sew my own garments, and I kind of miss blogging about that.
Recently, I purchased some water soluble oil paints, I know, strange. This is my first test run.
Not too bad, definitely need some more practice though. Drawing and painting more Macabre scenes really puts me in a happy place.
Here are some new doodles that I’ve done since my last posting. I really want to start doing this daily, so I know it’ll take some time to get up to that point.
I have some ideas to help me get out of this slump I’m in, so stay tuned 🙂 Cheers!